Well today's topic... fail. If you read my last post.. I talked about my Mr.Right? Well I just found out that on New Year's.. he made out with someone.. and that someone wasn't me. It's okay though. I've gotten into bad situation three times in a row so I've decided that i'm going to go with the 3 strikes you're out rule. I'm done for awhile. I've had cruddy feeling ever since i heard that today.. ugh..
A new year is here and... I think I'm ready for it. Everyone has goals and idea's for the new year and I'm not sure about you, but I do the same thing. The problem with me is that I seem to forget about those goals and idea's after a couple weeks and fall back into the same slump I was in before. This time I am ready. I am ready to be focused and on the ball with things. I've decided everything I have planned is going to be given and hundred and ten percent! That includes finding my mister right. I'm sure everyone out there has a horror story or two and I'm included. I've been played, and chosen second. Being picked second to pot isn't the best feeling. It's funny I think about some of the good guys I am friends with and realized that I've had feelings for this one guy for the longest time. Ever since high school I've had a thing for him and it's never really gone anywhere until recently that is. A summer story turns it around. This boy, who we can call "Josh" for now, is amazing. He is a farm boy and for a smalltown girl like myself, is perfect. We can talk about anything even if that means we stay up til 3 a.m. to do it. One of my classmates passed away this year and it was hard one everyone. A life taken at 19years old is just.. hard in any situation no matter the cause. Well my classmate and friend happened to be "Josh's" best friend. And the day of the funeral, which was hard enough, he found that his grandpa had passed away. He is such a kind hearted good guy for so much sadnesses to be hitting at once and if any one "deserved" it so to speak.. it wasn't him. But, it gave me a chance to be his shoulder to lean on and it made us a lot closer.We had been getting closer over the summer, then this happened, and it just made us that much closer. Lately we've been hanging out a lot more. The thing is he is going to a school 4 hours from mine which isn't bad I guess. I really like him and would love it to work out.The though of "don't be selfish" keeps running through my mind though. Why add another thing to his plate when it's already so full? I will always be there as his friend.. but I would love to win him over and be able to tell people.. "that boy is mine
" Hello 2010.. hopefully I can over come some of my challenges.. including getting my mr. right!
